FAITH “Trusting Your Own Deepest Experience”

If I had to choose a 2nd favorite book, it would easily be this one. Written by Sharon Salzberg and coming at a time when my life was going through many changes and me doubting everything I  knew, her story comforted me like no other. It was pure awesomeness.

I remember reading this book on the METRA on my way to Columbia College, thinking to myself,

“What if everything I’ve done is wrong?”

Of course no one really knew about it because in the earlier stages of reading about self improvement, I became too good at putting up a positive face. Overwhelming anxiety can be a bitch. Don’t take diet pills. ever.

It was this book that reminded me, “It’s gonna be all good.”

Plus I REALLY liked the cover.

the first time I saw you

We all crave new things. New relationships. New tv shows. New “answers” to everything we’ve been asking. The brightness of it all can feel really great at the beginning.

This is it!!!

You’re what I’ve been looking for!

But eventually something happens that forces us to question everything. Always does…. and it’s for the best.

why are we together again?

After the initial drunken feelings start to wear off, comes the fun part. Doubting starts to take over and we question why we’re even here in the first place. Most people would not even bother to go on, but this is where everything really starts to take shape. This is where when people start to really live the ideas they’ve only been reading about.

If we’re not careful, we start to blindly follow everything offered to us. But with doubt and the right questions, we realized that everything great takes effort.

And then one day….

OH WOW!

And then you just know everything you needed to know.

Looking back, I think the best part of the experience was not knowing if it was going to be allright. It was scary shit ! If anything, this book came at a time when I really needed to hear it is gonna be ok. I don’t know a lot of things, even though I can sometimes pretend like I do. I do have faith that one day I will get a hug from Sharon Salzberg and it’s gonna be awesome!

She reminded me everything changes. Except for the fact I really liked this book.